Irreplacable

2010-07-12T05:46:00.000-07:00

I don't want to please everyone.
I don't wnat 2 be compliant.

But things are not looking well if I'm not doing those.
^6

Shit this!
My life is in a mess.
Whats more than difficult?
My parents are estranged.
I & Sis are estranged.
Everyone is getting old.
And stuffs and stuffs,
immune to parental stuffs.

BUT SCHOOL IS SO SUCKY! zzz
I hoped I worked harder in p6.
Sometimes,
I really wonder...
I am right to leave all my primary school memories.
But they are all living so happily now.
AND ME........
every0ne have their own pr0blems anyway.

WITHOUT problems,
life is never exciting but plain smooth-sailing.
Why bother to be part of the mankind then?

Todayy take height&weight.
bloody shit.
as short as ever.
as fat as ever.

FORGET IT!
If I'm short,
I've got to be freaking slim.

AND I NEED MONEY FOR THAT.
I will do so when I have the earning power.
THATS it!
im not listening to practically every lessons,
in my own dreams,
in my deep thoughts,
texting,
laughing and what else?
ALL FUN AND NOTHING ELSE
!
felt like a parasite/
parents worked so hard to give me tuitions and stufffs.

I am not working hard, am I?
WITH THAT,
im gna do my homework now.

I thought I entered a new phase of my life..
Everything looked smooth.
Until I was infatuated with ****
And later infatuated with *****
And later ****** and later *****!
OMG>.<
is life always filled with infatuations?

I just seemed to be infatuated with everyone I talked to.
Are humans that mesmerising?
If so,
I would have been infatuated by almost everyone I talked to once before.!
LOL!

......

2010-07-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I just wished that I was dead.
I don't wna commit sucide.
I don't wna to go into a breakdown.
Just wished that I have never co-exist in this world with others.

Obviously it will be bored if I am co-existing in this world myself.
There is a lack in significance then.
I have used so much of my parents'.
My everything is paid for and taken care of by them.
Even my life belongs to them.

So its difficult to leave this world sometimes.
Esp for a person who is so afraid of death.
I wonder how will I die next time?
I can't help but ponder if my life will ever be at its peak
because so far, I can't feeel the excitement, a true excitement
taking place...
Is my life really that mundane or is it that I'm not being participative enuff in this life, this moment?

I just hate the facts that I behave in a haste
and everything just happened so fast.
Those that should be offended shall be so.
Those that are hurt shall be so.
Can't I just shut my damn bloody mouth for a sec?

2010-07-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

I AM DYING SOON IS IT?!
My neck down is aching like hell everyday everyday... esp during sats and suns..

MY FATHER IS CHIDING ME FOR NOT OFFF-ING THE COMP cos' he wants to sleep.!
FINE!
grant u ur wish.
BYE

2010-06-09T03:14:00.001-07:00

STOPPPPPED BLOGGGING!
HEH^^
Prolly when my blogging mood is back then I will blogggg agnn! gahaha:D

2010-06-07T02:37:00.000-07:00

KNEW WHAT! I just remembered I had 10 Friendster Accounts in the past.! I didn't forget lah! But I momentarily remembered. Let me show you one! (:

I sort of regretttted!! THESE 10 accounts nearly brought me to N/A Stream. I am practically addding and adddding and adddding friends, wanting the amount of friends to increase as it levels up my sense of accomplishment. This further accentuates my inseparable stimulation with the KEYBOARDs!!!! One account requires 1000 friends to be full. And imagine the time I have wasted?!?! My computer was down on nearing to my PSLE, roughly around 2 months? And I was very bored so I went to do my work and HAHA! I also dedicated some of my quality time in the tuition centre. But 193 still very lousy but never mind cos' I was supposed to get very much lower than that. Computer changes your life. People, don't be toooo inclined to it kayy? It will affect YOUR FUTURE! :D Ohyah, with reference to the picture! That is my sis's spects. My eyesight is deteriorating. And I can't believe it. A few days before school came to a closure, Sivaranjini and I sat beside each other, the furthest from the whiteboard. The bespectacled Siva didn't wear her spectacles at that point of them and she could seeee the words on the screeeeen and I can't!!!! How can that happen? That is when I realised that my eyesight is not even comparable to some1 who actually wore spects! OMG! And I regretted telling my father because he keeps reminding and commenting on it! And the worst it, he wants me to wear spects! I won't give in. I don't want to wear spects because I think that it is very inconvenient. And I love the feeling of not wearing spects so people will think that my eyesight is okay when IT IS NOT! And I don't want to wear contact lenses because people will think that th' brownness came from the contact lenses! It's from the light, in fact! {:

X0X0!
cheryl[:

2010-06-07T01:26:00.001-07:00

I can't fathom your thoughts.
And don't make me guess,
because you're impelling me to make a deduction
which may result in accusation
which you & I never want it that way.

This holiday,
I'm always indulging myself with food,
going on a FOOD BINGE like Adrian Mole.!
This is a partially gratifying my desire for them.
Much as I hate food a lot,
I mean I love them but some unhealthy food like McDonalds...
I still eat them! I have been practically calling up McDonalds for delivery every now and then. Worst is, McDonalds today gave me 2 extra hashbrowns for Breakfast. Yet I realised it late so I have to eat it!!!!! How cruel is that? I dreamt of McDonalds last night. The same visions of it kept occurring though I know that isn't true. I thought of them to have found McDonalds to promote unhealthiness in human-beings. This is what I dreamt! And no offence to McDonalds. People nowadays self-indulge themselves with food. I am a examplary example here and McDonalds can't be blamed if we want to hand our $$$ to them! (:

2010-06-07T01:17:00.000-07:00

Practically for the past few days I have done nothing of any sort. To add in some description, I felt like I have fallen into a deep, dark, shadowy pit. I have no desire to do anything yet I am drowning in my worries of the work I need to do. I have been extremely tired lately, which has also led me to believe I am suffering from this work-induced stress. I find little enjoyment in typical enjoyable situations, and quickly fall back to a bored sigh and a reoccuring yawn. I find myself wasting away the time, to myself, to others, but mainly staring at the shadowy entrapment around me. Lack of attention has led me to distaste for my looks. Insequrities streaming out from cracks of the inner base, make me feel nervous again and continued restlessness causes other to sense the anxiety I attempt to battle. Food, a longtime witness of these conditions, is continually called upon and is constantly answering.

This will pass, and reoccur for that matter. Maybe I am fortunate and blessed?

2010-06-04T04:04:00.002-07:00

And heh, I went for FACIAL today! (L
And tmr, I'm going Jurong Swimming Complex Www
Amirah, Gayathri and her beloved sis! (:
COol hah!?! Cool for the fun only!
Afterwhich, I have to go for Swimming lessons in the evening,
USING THE SAME SWIMMING COSTUME kay! (H

gAGAGAha!
Felt that I irritated a lot of people in FB today by
commenting.
OMG, ForGIVVV me pls!
THANKS:D
God knows you're benevolent.

2010-06-04T04:04:00.001-07:00

I yearn to own the sharpest nose.
I yearn to have a face with beautiful features.
I yearn to own flawless skin.
I yearn to be TALL.
I yearn to have long legs.
I yearn to be a beauty.
I yearn to have good grades.
I yearn to be born in a silver spoon family.
I yearn to be the cleverest lady on earth.
I yearn to have high EQ.
I yearn to have high IQ.

Thats just yearning.
Lets talk about what will I have if I get them?

If I have a sharp nose,
people won't say that my nose is blunt.

If I have a face with beautiful features,
people won't say that I am ugly
and I won't feel ugly when I look into the mirror, at least!

If I have flawless skin,
people won't say that my skin is lacking in moisture.

If I am tall,
people won't say that I am short.
I will have a good posture and increased level of confidence.

If I have long legs,
I won't be in the conversation of others in comparison with people who
have long legs. Just because. I have short legs.
It is so unfair. See Jolin Tsai, she has long limbs but short body,
according to comments and that is why she don't look short.
But to me, she is not short, cos' she is 158 cm.
taller than me means tall, in my dictionary.
it means nothing to you,
it means a lot to me.

If I have beauty,
people would not use it as a criticising chip when we fall out.
even if I don't fall out with the other party,
they would think likewise beneath their heart.

If I have good grades,
teachers wouldn't doubt me of my ability to achieve.

If I'm born in a silver spoon family,
I get to have a personal hairstylist so that my hair wouldn't go out of place.
I get to have a personal trainer so that my figure doesn't go out of shape.
I get to have personal TUTORS so that I can get better grades.
I get to learn and mingle with instruments at a young age.
People won't criticise me for learning piano at age 14.
People won't criticise me for learning swimming at age 14.
I get to have the best doctors when I fall sick.
I get to go shopping everyday.
I get to buy the whole popular bookstore assessment books.
I get to get a private poool.
I get to have a grand piano, not baby grand, but real grand!
I get to have a series of piano teachers.
I get to have bird-nest everyday.
I get to have top-quality stuff.
I get to have...
a lot more.

See the wonder of money?
It can buy me happiness
because all that I need, money is the solution.

If I am the cleverest lady on earth,
people would respect me.
rather than now robbing me of the least dignity I have left.

If I have a high EQ,
I won't be hurt by other's verbal words no matter how hurtful it is.

If I have a high IQ,
I would be able to think beyond people which makes me feelsssss
at the top of the world.

BUT I DON"T HAVE ANY!
I DON"T WISH TO COMPLAIN ABOUT LIFE.!
But LIFE JUST SUCKS!
YOU DON'T KNOW WHO ARE THE REAL ONES.
THEY JUST JUDGE YOU FROM BENEATH,
WITHHOLDING INFORMATION WHICH IS
A BY-PRODUCT OF THEIR MISINTEPRETION,
PRECONCEIVED OPINION & MORE & MORE.

GIVING YOU THE DISGUSTED LOOK.
& A LOT MORE.

YOU SUCK! DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT IM TALKING ABT YOU?
PLEASE TREAT ME PROPERLY.

APPROPRIATELY PLEASE.

IT IS MORE HURTFUL THAN USUAL.

2010-05-31T07:14:00.000-07:00

Heyo! I got a tutor already..
Wonder how will it turn out this time.

A/E Maths ..
A guy called dunno what name.
$20/HR

Nice!!:D

And there's a alternative so if he's nt good,
then I'll switch another agency which is actually in place for me!!

HAHAHA:D
Im one lucky chap!
:D

Wasted SGD$80/-
Obviously wunn be so dumb agnnnn.
Must askkkk everythgg properly first..:D

Thn... Found a phy tutor.
He's a teacher in Bishan Sec:D:D:D:D
Cool! Actually is an intern
SGD$30/hr
:D:D:D:D:D
BROKE ANYWAY.

I found one of the TOP5 super tutor in singapore,
and he's only one of the top 5 that teaches physics.

Go to physics.com.sg!
But his fees are expensive.
I did once considered him but i don't have that kind
of moneyy!:D

$340 at his house per month.
Somemore is grp tuition.
and he lives at bishan.
Is it worth it?
but his testimonials at his website like very good leh.
BUT!
mostly from top schs de!:(

2010-05-30T22:04:00.000-07:00

Mostly went to Jap.
Mostly went to BeiJiing! :( :(

!!!!
[:
Ha-ha!!!!:D:D:D
I have not been studying!
stil in search of a tutor!
DETERMINED TO ACHIEVE:D
I let the whole world down.

BTW!
did i told u?
i chased away another 2 tutors.
One is a female.
She's named Melissa.
Reason being she doesn't suit me because she speaks
monotonously and not detailed at all.
Another is a 58-year-old man!
Can't believe agency really knows how to cheat people
and earn money like that thou' i have to admit
its partially because of the low rate that i want.
I sort of regret chasing away the first tutor
cos' he's like better!
The 58-year-old hair all white
somemore his hair got cellotape
wonder huu so bad go prank on him.
then he bring a very big bag inside all rubbish stuff.
ALL THE OLDEN MATERIALS
he seems breathless
but pitiful thou
he accepted the offer of 20/hr and he
had to travel all th way from Queenstown to Hougang.
And whats more its not reasonable at all.
But his teaching sucks!
like really.
show me 1985 AMATHS textbook and tell me its better
than the presnt one.
HOW CAN IT BE MAN?
when the aesthetic of the book with colours
are actually on triumph terms.
:D:D:D

Then right,
he seems so dejected with he left...
MADE SUPER GRAVE mistake.
not gonna use this agent AGN!
cheatbuggg!
somemore her website so lowclass.
is not a website of her own.
is bloggggger leh!
let u know who she is.

irenetuition.com

!:D DAMN THis!

Amirah and Gayathri and Me recently went to swimmmm!
@t Anchorvale with her sister n her aunt.
While her mother and her cousin are spectators""!
We played the slides and shit
and omg, we went to her house!
not bad lahh!

Gayathri also went to my house !
Its like randomly over the phone i just
asked her to come over.
and she did,,,,,, LIKE OMG.!
buts
its the first n last time
cos' i dunlike people to come my house.

damnnnnn dirty/
den i order mcccccdonalds
while we watch people dancing on YOUTUBE!

:D:D:D:D wanted to see piano covers but
she's not interested at all///// LOL

:D:D:D I did a grave mistake u know what!
I wanted to post Amirah's homework to her.
but i dunhave AN A4 size letter
////!
I went to use 8 A4 size paper and
celllotappped it like a letter and
put everything inside before sealing it
YET I USED a 26cents stamp to post.
Furthermore, the size is not acceptable

so offfff with all the hasssssle.

I had to call SIngPost and shit myself up.
:(((((((((((((
Gaya and me and Amirah going to JurongEAst Swimming Complexxx
soon!!:DDDDD
and I going with carine and QiXuan to SWIMMING TMR!

OOMG!!!:DD

Can't wait!!

2010-05-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

LET ME GIVE THE LAST VENT!
:D

Rachel Yan! Some bitch you are.
Why can't you have a higher level of tolerance?
But no matter what, I did you wrong.
I am going to apologise to you.
Sorry Rachel Yan...with deepest sincerity.
You won't read it
and I am still contemplating whether
to write you a letter or confront you.

SHALL confront you. :D A smart choice and a time
for me to showcase my courage. XD

2010-05-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

Finally the focus programme is done.
(:
Today is the last day of school. And I can't wait for the day to come.
true enough,....

i haven done my eng homework on the admirable qualities of Dr. Goh Keng Sweee..
Oololol..

Beauty is extremely important.
Character is just as important.
Both are adjustable.
[: just that Beauty requires some cosmetic surgery which costs $$.

in my viewpoint,
cosmestic surgery is not fake.
you are just pursuing the perfection u always wanted.
there are no ugly people in this world,
but mere poor people.

Plastic Surgery exists because of unsatisfied human beings.
Why not just make use of it thou'?
It's made in place for us! For us, i emphasizze!!

2010-05-24T05:54:00.000-07:00

BEAUTIFUL DAWN YEOH!

2010-05-24T05:19:00.000-07:00

I going for my NASA Gold Swimming Test soon!
I know I learn swimming very late.
People like Andreana already Gold Star..!
But at least I bother to go and learn.
!! I hope I will passs.....
if not waste $$$$$$$.

Go, CHERYL!

2010-05-24T04:44:00.000-07:00

DAWN YANG IS FREAKIN HOt!:D

2010-05-24T02:02:00.000-07:00

Today got focus programme for selected people ONLY..
Heard from QiXuan that these people are selected based on a survey that they have done
or dunno what crap..
Got some conflict with QiXuan twice!
Wun mention it here.

When I went back to class, bloody fuck iskandar go scare the hell daylights
out of me. It made me scream like some mad dog.
(as if the whole building toppled!)
He apologised but I was very peeved so I kicked him.
When I went to class, Mrs. Ng face was like boiling.
giving me the (angry that I shouted) look.

I slaacked in class.
She was closing Binomial Thereom today
when I don't even know what the hella the topic is freaking about.
Even Modulus Function also not sure.

Nvm!
Btw, did I say I got a new tutor?
forget it if I said it. But I haven talked about her rite.
She's Melissa from Anderson JC.
She gng into SMU soon to study business.
My cousin name also Melissa and from Anderson JC but
she's in U already.
So won't coincidence urghhh?

I can ask her for the hellllaaa world I want.
Starting this Friday, Vesak Day!
haha!

Kind of felt guilty actually kay!
My ex-tutor the guy he actually texted me today.

He said : "Hi cheryl! I tot I told ya that I'll be in china frm 14-24 may? sry i din hav auto roaming so I cldnt receive yr msg n I just came back...."

Omggg. make me frigggin' guilty.
But its okay. I have gotten over the guilt.
It's not like I never offend people b4.
to think that i was initially thinking of all possible circumstances.
I was thinking that what if one day i see him on the streets/?
would he be cursing me like bloody fuck?
or perhaps he's already cursing me right now!
okay, dun think the extreme of ppl'.

In class,
so boring. let siva draw my hands.
like not enuff like that.
ask her draw both hands.!!
hahaha:D

Rati's having a cold..
Wulalalala!
Get wellsoon!:D

2010-05-21T06:10:00.000-07:00

Had a long chat with Gayathri juzzz now!
damn angry.
a little bit only lah.

YESTERDAY:
i texted my tutor if we are having tuition today.
he did not reply.
1 hr later i texted him to tell him that I dun feel like having today and ask
him to come tomorrow at 7pm.
i sleep throughout.
At 8 p.m. I texted him,
practically begging him to reply.

TODAY :
I waited for him at 7 pm. He gave me no reply yesterday so i assumed
that he knew it cos' he didn't turn up for the tuition session yesterday either.
He did not turn up. I used my dad's hp to call him cos' he knows my number.
Then his hp was switched off.!

I have not been having tuition for two weeks ald!
cos' the first time is cos' he can't make it after me waiting him for forty MINS!
the second time is because he say he go overseas.
THIS WEEK he never inform me anything siah!
still dun reply my messages!
i send in long intervals somemore.
like 3 ytd?
and 1 today?
cos' i scared he will be irritated.

I AM' ANGRY!
wannnnna a new tutor!

SHOOOOoOoOoO!

2010-05-21T00:19:00.000-07:00

in this world,
there are some selfish people.

take this for instance,
the teacher is teaching binomial thereom.
your classmate wanted to clarify her doubts
and you feel that she is asking ridiculous questions.

i think that this world would be a better place if this girl's classmates
could put themselves into her shoes.

they understand the topic which makes this classmate questions
seem ridiculous.
hasve you ever thought when one day you don't understand
something and you posed a question,
perceiving as a ridiculed question in other people point of view?

selfish creatures.
some people learn slower,
can't you be more gracious to give them some grace?
its like you meeting someone with lower IQ
and you mean you are going to despise them
for their low IQ?
It is the same thing.

If you say you won't,
then don't do it to your friends in another one-of-a-kind situation!

perhaps you may think that i feel that these people are selfish,
i mean you all might think that im saying this because i don't understand.
not true.
to everyone you should bear a tolerance heart.
especially whe someone has a hunger thirst for KNOWLEDGE.
they want to LEARN.
they want to CLARIFY DOUBTS.

F*** THIS !!

I'm not pretending.
I don't ask questions when I already know.
I hate especially to doubt me when I want to CLARIFY DOUBTS.
Why do I have to stoop so low to make myself feel so small?
I might as well ask tougher questions to blind you people out.
exactly i dun have that kind of STARS*** knowledge to ask those
question.

Im justifying for my right.

No Offence : not refering to anyone.

Just feel that this world would be a better place if more people
is more TOLERANT.

SELFISH!
selfish! dogs!
all dogs.!

2010-05-18T08:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPINESS is born from within.
God loves me and I love God.
I know that I might not even be on the list. Perhaps 100+/Whole Cohort

Calm down, Cheryl!
This is not the end of the world.
God will provide me some pleasure later on
provided I work hard enuff//

Thank you for the joy & everything,
but im sad to say,
i hate (...)

I thought that pressure could actually garner one's potential.
but unfortunately did it really help?
it helps to lower one's self-esteem at that!
Sorry for posting so many times in a day.
I think if our report cards have to be written,
mine would be blOOoody Red.
(0.0)

2010-05-18T08:04:00.000-07:00

调整你的态度。为它去吧！学业好的的人该得的。你不可以真正去欣赏别人在后头付出的努力因为永远停留在井底的你不愿脚踏实地。没有人说容易获得成功。无论哪所学校我们头从，它仍然是我们的态度和从哪个角度来看我们正在看待事件确定结果。我们必须向前看，有一个好的远见，我们真正想要的！我们是人类。我们有我们的需要。我们有我们的期望。我们要打造奇迹！成功可算是最大的纪念品之一的我，你呢？当前，获得良好结果将会下一届来寻找的那小成功！

2010-05-18T07:59:00.001-07:00

I am sad yet I am not crying.
I am sad yet I am not showing.
I am sad yet I don't feel it.
I am sad yet I do nothing about it.
I am sad yet worried.
I am sad yet fearful.
What is this world coming to?

My results are really...
I am really very sad.
But I can't cry which I don't know why!
I don't wanna be immune to it k!

It's so scary, really.
It pains me most that I don't feel the sense of urgency.
I should have it with me all the time.
I'm a girl guide!

FUCK THIS!
very disappointed with EMATHS, really.
I expected an A1 yet I was given an A2.
Maths was seriously the only dream I dreamt of at night!

2010-05-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

OMG! Dawn SO PRETTTTY!

you think dawn orrrr jesssica liu pretttier?

2010-05-17T02:34:00.000-07:00

Hmmm....
mrs. ng going to teach AMATH tmr.
she covering two chapters these few weeks behind HOLS come.

!! So.........

Modulus Function
&
Binomial Thereom

WooooOTS!
(:

2010-05-17T02:31:00.000-07:00

yueying was like crying very badly, really badly today!
cheer up okay!~
not the end of the world.
somemore crying wouldn't turn your results to marks with flying colours!!
solve it. head it. resolve it. OVERCOME it.

The solution is....

Disney presents....

STUDY! ! ! PRACTICE MORE.

Out on 25 ARPIL 2011

2010-05-17T02:24:00.000-07:00

I'm so disappointed with thyself.
but thyself did not shed a tear. a miracle.
i was determined long ago when i was taking the examination.
thyself did not want to seek attention.
thyself already knew the outcome.
tears wouldn't well in my eyes because i didn't work hard.
just let it flow.
i am disappointed not because i did not do well
but rather a perceived lack of time management.
time management is needed.
i think everything can be given a push.
but physics, hmm...
im wondering what strategy would suit me.
i was like telling my father and he was like
"Bio 26 only!?! so lousy!"
can hear the disappointment conveyed together in his voice.
my mother once said she invested a lot in me and
hoped that i did well.
actually bio i get 26 i was initally surpised,
i thought i would get nearly 0!

i know the disappointment i have brought to this world.
anyway this is not the end of the world.
this is not 'O's.
this is not EOY.
i have two more chances.
don't condemn me.
rather disappointed with maths.
because i got an a2 for emaths.
i thought i could depend on maths.
i wished i could secure the only 2 '1's!
amaths A1.
emaths A2.
SS B4.
(add with geo will fail i think...)
(geo get less than 10 over 70) (- mrs. lim said so.
phy E8.
bio F9.
Gosh!

I think i pass 4 fail 4.
like so ?!?!?
sec 2 never fail before.
everyone doing so well,
it only disparages me.

LET IT FLOW.

2010-05-16T07:21:00.000-07:00

MY GEO VID! I re-do sia! cos' mrs. lim cannot open it! I rushed thru it, dun expect much!

2010-05-16T06:59:00.000-07:00

DAMN PEEEEEEVED!

My mother is a selfless bitch! I mean SELFISH! My father is another fucking shit! He just asked me to go to hell and called me a bloody idiot! Kay, whatever!

I watched hai pai tian xing on youtube so it is nice so I went to TS to bought the DVD! I really regretted buying mingzhongzhudingwoaini last time from TS and now hai pai tian xing from TS! really regretted! I think cos' their production is from M'sia or smth, then the eng subtitles is damn shitty! the eng very broken! and some of the words also mispelt!

ARGHHHH!

But still the graphics are alright, but I needed to check if it is spoilt.
So since i bought the dvd, i needed to RE-WATCH! This bloody selfish woman keep bugging me for the tvee. Damn shit! When she watch that time, I never hog her for the tveeeee.! esp when she watching her fong fei fei concert dvd i also never go and disturb her,! Infuriating!

I am not going to buy any DVDs from TS agn! I shall go to Poh Kim instead. I hate shows esp with english mistakes in the subtitles!

My father is another one. He is shouting my name all day long. Ask me do this and do that. It is not that I am having a whale of my time complaining, being a parasite! Yes, he's not working. Yes, he gives me a lot of money. Yes, I took a lot of advantage on him. But he took no less of advantage on me TOO!

He's undergoing menopause or what huh! His temperant is damn fiery. Howling like a dog all day long. To me and my GrandAunt. And I hate it when we watching show, he always like to comment and tell people (anyone that is around). He would comment : "I hate this fellow. Cannot sing song one" and SHITS! He would just SAY IT, AS LONG AS SOMEBODY IS AROUND, even if their ears are not willing to receive the message! ARGGGGGGh!

so sick of everything, really.

And its not that im not willing to do things for him. its like u do this for him, then a while later, he would ask u to do this do that agn! its a little of tooooo much of things within short intervals. It is esp irritating and exasperating if you want to enjoy ur ice-cream or do something serious like homework. Now and then only, its as if i am at his beck and call.

Iknow that im irritating. But he is worst! Brain-tormenting. Physically tormenting too!
I just set him up! he scolded me for not switching off the fan power. I switched on his toilet light and accused him of not switching on his toilet bulb! anyway, its not like he never do b4!

LOL:D enuff of complaining.!

i go and pack my stuffff. Im so happy. today it is quite rewarding because i packed my books, LIKE FINALLY! realised i got alot of books untouched! until no space 2 put that i need to dig space here and there.

i also re-wrapped all the essential good Books of thyself.
! like used 3 book-wrappppper! 3 thick thick one k! :D actually is 2 1/2 lah!
the third one haven use finish!

2010-05-15T08:42:00.001-07:00

Suddenly thought of this.
I always think of weird stuff.
Whatever!
anyway, a lot of people think that im weird.
There is a indelible imprint on their mindset
that CHERYL IS WEIRD.!
just let it flow.
as long as it doesn't hurt me physically.
i must upload my "indomitable will".
though i dunhave.
i will just believe i have for the benefit of thyself.!

When there is shit in the toilet bowl
and the toilet bowl is out of order!
Pour soappppp into the towl bowl and
splatter water to "diffffffuse" it to be MIXED PROPERLY!
all the foam will be formed.
Cannot see the shit!
so flatmates won't chide you for being "unhygienic"
when u don't meant to!

I didn't carry out the process k!
I thought of it when I was spending my soap
"GENEROUSLY", splattttering it around
when im bored.

FYI, when im bored,
I spend prolonged hours in the bathroom playing with soap!
ONLY when im bored.
Provided i have the time.

Suddenly remember that I and my cousin was very close last time.
we always bathe together.
dun think dirty okay!
it was when I WAS YOUNG!!
"I WAS YOUNG" okay!
I would teach her to do alot of bad things.
i know im bad.
I am just very mischievous.
i agree k!
we like to blow bubble.
we would use a lot of soap.
so that we can produce a lot of bubbles.
then we bathe very long.
cos' got two pipes for water in the toilet.
got Hot and Cold one.
so we would mix the pipe and pour at one go.
It's like Hot-and-Cold.!
quite nice lah.
hot yet cold!
we go buy ring,
cheap one lah, not jewellery shop!
put the soap in the ring, and blow bubble
cos' grandmother dun allow us to buy bubbles.

we buy balloon and play...
like in a room filled with ballon.
restricted with alot of ballons so cool!
play singing competition!

i know very childish.
but i just thought of it and feel like saying it k!
at bedtime when we sleep,
cos she got blanket and i also got blanket.
then we would play like one of us is the master and
the other one would be like the lackey,
okay not nice to use the word lackey,
like ..... wait! let me think of a Better word!
Perhaps assistant?

Then i always want to be the master,
cos
like that it makes me feel at the top of the world!
then she must listen to me and im the one giving the
instructions! hahaha!

she always dun mind.
afterall i was older than her,
so she was like more of giving in to me.
So bad hor me! hahaha!

then my aunt got a lot of magazines.
got one day she was sleeping.
We was flipping thru the magazines.
i instigated her to be in cahoots with me.
To cut the pictures we love from her magazines.
the first picture i cut i remmember is a rabbit.
then my aunt very angry.
she scolded me alr.
nvm.!
at night i somemore go use her cosmetics.
not to use on my face lah!
i will use it ON HER BLANKET!
mix and mix!
pour a bit of every product on her blanket!
waste it and make it wet!
she found out got angry!
and draw whiskers on my face using eyebrow ppencil!!
omg cannot forget sia!

so ugly the whiskers like cat like that!
i remmeber when we brush teeth.
I always want to challenge my cousin.
always tell her that when we brush our teeth,
must have blood then counted brush properly.
That was the mindset of me when i was young lah k.!
then she would like purposely brush until got blood sia!
omg.!!
haha!

then we always have soya bean milk and roti prata for our breakfast.
at a point of time,
we went to the market with our grandmother and then right,
we fall in love with tikam tikam!
we would tikam tikam the yugiyo cards.

haha!
we always follow our grandmother to market.
was very attached to her.
but now we are so far apart.
she even have to lie to me that she's in express, get 235 for PSLE.
i ask my friend check.
then she say that she in N.A get 193, same marks as me,
in deyi sec.

OMg,
*Nostalgia ovvercomes me*

!!! Good memories are meant to be keep.
Yeah?

LASt thing to share before my father shouts at me.
dunnno why got cement on our level that time.
3rd floor.

Then we go play with the cement.
its dry cement, FYI>.<
we would pour the cement,
kick it around,
make the floor scattered with LOADSSSA cement.!
K, im naughty!

bye:D

2010-05-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

I miss the days of my childhood.
There was no problems to solve mostly.
There was always games waiting for me.
For example : Monopoly, five stones, hide-and-seek
and any childish games.
Though it seems childish and is childish,
but at least it brings out the simplicity of happiness
which rarely exudes as we loomed into adulthood.

I remember that was once I and my sister.
We went to econ minimart and we saw a game.
We wanted it but we don't have money.
I rushed home to get money from my mother.
Not giving her a chance to reject,
I said, "my sister is in the econ waiting,
don't ask so much. Give me 5 bucks. Quick, don't waste time."

There we got the game.
Woooooooooots!

When we play hide-and-seek,
I would hide under the bed.....

Then I would think of this.
A perfect hiding place that I thought of when I was young.
Maybe it ever existed or I have seen it in the tveeee,
I don'tknow.

Its a master bed that can be lifted,
when it is lifted, there will be compartments to put things.
But if don't put,
playing hide-annd-seek it is a ideal place to hide.
Like who would lift up the bed???
Only jump on it lah!

But may suffocate to death...
so should install a small hole for breathing.
Don't need install, waste $$.
Just poke a hole can already.

When I was young.
I was very selfish.
My sister and I loved to buy magazines to see those idols.
And she called my mother to buy a extremely thick RING FILE.
And she would ask my mother to buy Folders to slot in the Idols
information from the magazine.
THose specific pages we wanted lah..
Then I was jealous.
I wanted my own one too!
it seems so special to collect them at that point of time.
I always bought two magazines and I would claim
I bought the extra one for my friend, Xin Ying.
This person practically doesn't exist.
I always would tell her : "Wait uh. I go down givv my friend
magazine..." Then I will go hide somemore.
Open the door and go down and come back.
Then I will tell her I passed "Xin Ying" the magazine alr.

LOL.
Sorry for using broken english.
just wanting to relate things.
But dun want to use bombastic words.
dunhave the mood.
So im using short form too!

it is actually my favourite pasttime to use bombastic words.
it feels so good using them.
but at times it feels as though im flaunting
when i don't have the intention to.
and it doesn't feel good when u use it and the other party
doesn't get it. like so bad.
like purposely use those words so that the other party dun
understand.

at times i dun even understand the word.
i just play around with it.
like roughly is like that use then i use.
i remember in primary school,
i like to use very bombastic words for PRIMARY LEVEL,
i emphasise.
it is esp to quarrel with people i detest...
then they wouldn't get what i mean,
just playing around with words and taking quotes
from magazines, online and television series which i remembered.

it feels like the top of the world.
though i may not "win" the quarrel.
I just seem to "win" to a certain LEVEL.
it just feels so good tormenting the other party ,
making them confused.!
Omg.! I'm so bad!

2010-05-13T04:42:00.000-07:00

I FEEL SO SAD!
I FEEL SO SAD!
Just a brief planning for what to do during the holidays.

- Go to polyclinic to consult about my ear!
My ear piercing since last year oct 16 the cartilage!
NOW STILL RED SIA!
IDIOT!

- Find out more about SURGERIES (though i don't have the $$..)
at least let me dream

- PACK ALL MY BOOKS

-REORGANISE ALL MY BOOKS

- RE-wrap all my books

- go buy name sticker agn!

- Get "Yu Ai" piano score from yanli

- hope to get this done before sch reopens
* Know how to play "Yu Ai"
* " "Wonderful 2nite" Exam piece G2
* " "Allegro smth" Exam piece G2
- " "Th 1st raindrops"
- "Pink Lady" concert song
- " "Marriage D Armour
+ AIYA SO MUCH! depends.
dun think can finish!

- "HEAD-TO-TOE Analysis"!

- Buy Products!~

- Reviseeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

- Solutions to "(*****)"

~@#@#%$#^%$&^&**((*)(_+_

Oh yah,
must go swimmmmmmming very often!!!
to practice for gold , later fail then die!
Omg, where i put my gold form?
SHYT!
I go and find now....
BUH-BYE!

2010-05-13T04:32:00.000-07:00

(ESP this video!)
It was an agony watching it!!

i WANT 7k!
to do the surgery!
can someone gimmme $$$$$$$?

2010-05-13T04:06:00.000-07:00

acutally i feel so left out.
just feel so.
when will i really find a place to settle down and
have the goodness, truth and beauty of this world?
Will I even harbour a chance?

2010-05-13T04:02:00.000-07:00

Exams are finally coming to a closure.
Already a closure.
What a waste of time to go to school for a 45 mins paper!
It should have been commenced 3 exams in a row.
And today would be a freelance chapter!
We went to tea chapter.
This is not new.
B'cos I went before in primary school.
SO shit!
They booked transport to bring us to the Tea Chapter,
which is at Nile Road, near chinatown,
but quite a distance kay!
Then they made us take mrt back ourself.!!!!
:(
Rachel is damn dumb lor!
She lives in Serangoon North.
Okay.
Then from chinatown mrt, she
actually alighted at dhoppy ghaut mrt.
Northeast line HELLO!
Knew what she did,
went to change to AMK North SOUTH LINE
thru' dhoppy ghaut and took a 74 HOME!
waste of money $$$$!
waste of time !
shouldn't she just take to hougang or smth
and take 74.!
Godness!

I just realised my chinese teacher the leg quite slim!
Not bad,
after giving birth to 3 children!
Bleeeehs!
hmm....
Exams are over..
still planning what to do.

2010-05-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

It's not to late to realise how fortunate you are.
This is a real baby.
If you are not fortunate,
I believe this baby would more than like to
take your place.

How pitiful !
Cherish your life.
It is given by your parents.
You should not abuse it!

2010-05-10T03:52:00.000-07:00

Blehhhhhhhh.
Tomorrow is EMATHS paper.
When all the MATHS papers come,
I seem to be relaxing.
Because deep down my heart,
I know the effort that I have put in for the past 4 months.
Like seriously,
everyday im doing maths, maths and maths,
nelgecting the rest almost TOTALLY.!

:D
But still, I will study.
I am gaining interest in SCIENCE (S)!
AFTER MYE then gain interest,
a lil toooo late hah.

!
Yesterday vernice called me.
I sort of give her a cheezzze-off attitude
that she can't tolerate to talk to me for another second.

Actually,
I don't want to keep in touch with my primary school friends anymore.

Plus ytd I was studying Biology..

I want to forget all the primary school memories,
it won't stay etched in my mind at all.
Okay, or I should say,
I can remember but I won't bother to think about it.

(: I am not happy with what I am and where I am now,
but at least it is better off primary school.

Thats it.
(:

2010-05-10T03:43:00.000-07:00

Hmm...
I studied for Bio vaguely till 12 plus.
And I started at 10 plus...
Read two chapters, yes, a run-thru only.
Not even memorising.
In the end,
I set the alarm clock to ring at 2a.m.
Yes, I didn't wake up again.
It ended up a great disaster for me.
I don't know how to do a single question,
including the labelling.
Let it all flow.
For this exam and the previous exam,
I didn't put in any effort at all.
I concentrated too much on maths
which apparently I don't know why too.
Is it cos' ** failed her O Levels Mathematics which triumphs me on
but also for a bad cause or...?
Shyt this man.
AMATH was relatively easy but the same old thing.
It's easy but difficult for me.
So it means difficult too.
[: I don't know how to do 3 questions.
Shit this.
Shit this.
Let it flow. Let it flow. I believe it will flow.

I told my mother not to take into account my ct1 and mye results.
I told her no effort was taken in.
So no effort taken in = no account taken in.
I hope she keeps her promise.

I am afraid that parents' meeting session on 27 may will be a great shit!
Because all the failing subjects, amounting to zeros
will be reflected.
yes,, Reflected.
I will fight on,
I won't drop any subjects or
convert any subjects no matter what.
If not, everything is gone to drain.
I fought so hard till today,
don't let it dry.

O:

! with more memorisation,
it does the trick!
like seriously, c whether u got the time,
heart, mind and soul to do the things.

Miss. Ho once said as long as u put in ur greatest effort,
you did your best and fear nothing.
But...
I did not.

In Sec1 &2.
Omg, it feels so good.
When the paper comes,
you fill up everything,
as if you are copying a textbook.
Smooth and easy.
Lesser memorisation.
Now,
huge,
CHUNKS,
THRILLIONS!

its okay....
Let it flow.

Let it flow.

2010-05-08T09:54:00.000-07:00

Candyce and JunYang is married! if you don't know!

2010-05-08T09:27:00.000-07:00

I know I have been slow but I only finished watching 海派甜心 recently.
As you can imagine.....!:D
but the show is nice.
I know whatever I type here may seems mindless especially to people
who have already watch.
I am a slowPOKE! can!?!?!
Enough of critiques, if you're intelligent enough.
Yes, Im prettyy slow.

2010-05-08T09:21:00.000-07:00

After finding for sooooo long!
Finally found 雨爱 Piano score.

2010-05-08T09:16:00.001-07:00

Bloody hell.
My father just scolded me.
Father : The printing paper is depleting. Can't you go to the stationary shop to buy after your siwmming lessons?

Bloody fuck luh. Everytime like to associate things with my mother.
You and your mother is the same...blah...blah....
He actually expects me to know everything.
I really didn't know that the stationary shop at 600+ hougang got sell printing paper.
I really don't know.
The only place that sells printing paper that I know is POPULAR!
And I still remember.
Last time girl guide one of the 5-point-programme need to take picture of the gas pipe of my house or dunno what.
Its located outside my house near the staircase there.
My father paved the way cos' I needed to take a photo of that so called "gas pipe" since its one of the criteria.
Then....
I can't see it.
He points, "there...there..."
I really can't see it.
He started flaring up and scolded me for being so dumb.
I really don't know.
Yes, its my oversight
but I can't blame it.
He blames me for the slighest things.
Things that are "TOO SIMPLE" for him,
he would think that I am far too dumb not to understand and grasp what he
is bloody driving at.
It only makes him look so small.
Whatever, since he wants to portray that outlook!

2010-05-08T02:14:00.000-07:00

I think I pissed my Pure Chem/Phy teacher..
She feels that I am showing a perceived lack of persistence.
Shit.
Offending the whole world.
I'm sorry.

Sometimes I wished I had a psychological problem,
or perhaps I really had it now without realising.
!
If I had,
maybe it can be a excuse for doing wrong things.
But its not constructive to think that way.
Whatever,!
Let it flow.

2010-05-08T02:12:00.001-07:00

Again,
Im just bored.
Please don't think that I returned to blogging.
Just wanna give a vent.
But I won't return to blog yet.
Hate posts without pictures.
I want a ITouch...
No money..!
Shall elaborate on the topic "money"next time!

2010-05-08T02:06:00.000-07:00

I wasted so much money on tuition.
I gotta make sure that it's worth it.
All these are empty talks.
Wait till I really do it.
Wanted a crash course because Maths teacher din't come on friday.
Yes, after making me wait painlessly for 40min.
Whatever, partially my fault too.
crash course 1 1/2 hour for 50 bucks.
waste money.
gotta ask my science teacher to teach me maths.
I am going to disappoint my parents and everyone,
I didn't put in the maximum effort,
not even a little for chemistry and phy.
The tuition fucking expensive (FOR ME).
Junxuan show me a article,
there shows that people who sleep less than 6 hours
have the tendency to die earlier.
I think I might breakdown soon,
die of fatigue, perhaps.
After 4 months plus,
I am completing my maths homework,
near to completion I shall say.
But some still dunno,
MATHS MATHS MATHS.
You revolve around my world.
Don't fail me.
Give me 1s like common test.
Though it wouldn't be smooth-sailing or the time.
SS i choose question two.
I memorised so much in the end half came out only.
Better than nothing
and that is for question 2a.
For question b never memorise,
regretttted!
used general knowledge to squirrel my way through.
I hope exams will end soon and I'll go for facial first to perk up my spirit!
Going for swimming now! Bye!:D

I don't know why,
I feel so lazzzy to go for swimming during examination time.
But I'll still go
if not my dear friend have to pull a rock again!
:D:D:D:D
When can I take gold?
I wonder...
My speed is kinda slow.
Whatever...
Lets see how it goes.
I don't wanna be late then I've to take a cab again!
No money.
Goodbye:D CYAZ:D
Have a nice day.
God bless you.

2010-05-08T01:58:00.000-07:00

Bloody hell.

EA was having exam and there comes this bloody shit shout for someone's name

shout until so loud.

Disrupt my concentration.

I can't multi task and I hate to have any noise while doing EXAMS especially.

Someone shout the person's name like shout dog like that.

Chemistry, I'm already struggling.

That person drew my thoughts away immediately when I was deeply thinking.

Bloody shit!

Another person.

Why do you have to judge me?

What makes you so sure that I am that kind of person?

Do you even know me that well?

We are just of mere acquaintances only,

don't pretend to be chummy with me okay.

I said I won't.

You told me, "Aiya... don't pretend luh."

Please lor,

I hate it when people doubt me.

Especially when I am speaking the truth and confident of my answer.

I wasn't even talking to you.

I was talking to my another friend and you cutted in.

Never talk to you right, bitch.

.Thats it.

Sometimes I feel shame enshrouding me,

I know I can't forget what I've done.

I know I shouldn't have done all those.

I feel guilty sometimes,

but I feel more ashamed.

I really want to leave this school soon.

So many bad memories as it is.

And the badmemories was created by me solely.

So , since I have already to adapted to how things are,

I'll just continue my journey in the hope of leaving soon and

stop creating bad memories as it is already bad enough.

2010-04-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

Suddenly mulling over things...
Felt that what I do is so wrong.
Yes, so wrong.

In primary school, I indulge in horoscopes and often had to meet with a difficulty is that when I ask people for their horoscope, some of them don't know. So I would ask for their birthday so that I can derive what horoscope sign they are from. And they will think that I ask because I want to give them present or shit.

In secondary school,...
In sec one and two,'
I like to ask people height and weight.

in secondary 3,
I like to ask people to compare
who (...) VS (...) prettier?

I am so bad.
I came to realise.
It's never too late.
what charlene said was right.
what stella said was right.

I should stop asking personal questions.
Anyway,
actually I wanted to ask Ms. toh whether she got boyfriend or not.
Then I thought about what stella said.
Then I started to think,.
I ask her also no use.
So what if she got a boyfriend?
and i always ask people height and weight last time..
so what if I know?
Just a memory collection,
waste my brain space.
know already also no use.
as if their ideal weight and height will become mine.
Just plain nosy!
stop it cheryl!

Ask this or this prettier?
so what if you compared and got to a conclusion.
this and this as in for example, Adeline or Adaigo prettier.
like comparing others like that.
useless.!
waste time.!
im tired. sleep. zzz

2010-04-25T10:32:00.000-07:00

I know I'm irritating.
Seriously,..

Like anyway,,
when fail tests or something.
or whatever shit.
or I never do homework.
When I say I never do homework,
When I say I fail,
I am not lying.
When I say I didn't study,
I am not lying.

I am not (...) okay.
She studies and she doesn't tell people her study habits.
She is even afraid to share her answers.
She will give excuses,
"I didn't study. I sleep all the time. That is exactly why I don't do well for those tests."
Is that a excuse ?

Cheryl : Can I borrow your paper? maths?? I want to see how to do...
(...): Don;t want luhh. I all anyhow do one. I scared u wrong.
Phrase it how nicely?!?

But when I am speaking the truth,
people would give me answers like .
"Yeah,...right..."
Why can't you instill some faith ?
It may seems nothing okay.
It doesn't feel nice when you are speaking the truth and the other party doesn't believes or inserts sarcastic comments.

Not NICE at all!
particularly.
okay..
continue the irritating part.

I don't prize myself on anything.
I am a perfectionist.
or should i say.
I hope to be a perfectionist.
I want things to be well.
But circumstances often lead me to doing it slipshod and haphazardly.

When I talk, people find me irritating.
When I shut up, people start asking me why am I so quiet.
When I laugh, people find me noisy or shit.
When I complain, people find me noisy.

Some people are just too commanding to please!
But..
I won't be quiet because of all these shit.
When i'm quiet,'
its because I don't have the mood./.
It''s because I don't feel like it..
It's because I just want to concentrate doing my things.

Checklist :
Copy geo homework
copy chem homework.
Owe nianyi 60cents
owe mandy one uniball blue-black pen
owe amirah one marker and one eraser.

Okay... thats it.

2010-04-25T10:20:00.000-07:00

I don't know why. I don't know.
Everything I do seems to be wrong.
Everything I do seems to be so embarrassing.
Is it because I am too rash?
which is apparently not true at times.
Sometimes I really tried so hard not to do wrong on particular times,
but everything that turns out.
I'm still wrong.
I'm always doing the wrong thing.
I'm always making a fool out of thyself.
I am always not meeting the desired expectations.
EA so what.!?!?
It just feels so...
3EA is just a title.
It doesn't mean that everyone can learn at a fast pace.
I know the attitude determines it..
But...
Everytime I ask questions, excluding private questions.
When I ask questions, no matter how silly people think it is,
but seriously when I ask. It is purely because I am in doubt.
Not that I'm trying to attract attention or whatsoever.
I am really in doubt.
Not that I want to provide some comic relief or what.
It's true. Yes, it's true.
Can't people give me a chance, a space to clarify my doubts?
I don't bother seriously.
I know many people are laughing, as in not out of the surface,
but deep in their heart, they will like go
"can she like stop asking? or omg... this is so ridiculous."
I am not being sensitive here,
I mean it is sort of quite obvious.
".." and "..." always turned back when I started asking questions.
Besides that, I can hear laughters.
Hello, I have ears.
But I didn't bother to look back.
Because at those point of time,
what I knew was that I really needed to clear doubts.
And the rest didn't matter.
Yes, I don't bother.
Maybe some people may think.

"Oh, she doesn't bother then why is she like blogging about it then"...
That is because I needed to give a vent.
I am not angry.
I am not pissed.
I am not peeved.
I am not sad.
Everything was just a plain disappointment.
I don't feel homely here.
Sometimes I really wish to leave.
I felt so stupid.
How come everyone is getting on so well?
How come everyone understands but I don't?
What's wrong?
How come so many of them can complete their homework and have a good rest?
I am sleeping at 3 + practically everyday to be exact.
I know my sleeping cycle has a problem.
I knew there should be a change.
Why are things so discouraging.?
I am not yearning for someone to tell me that :
"Cheryl, its okay.. You are not alone. I am also like this... like that".
I don't need that.
As I say, Im just giving a vent.
Okay, or rather I should say, I'm sick!
Sick of everything.
I don't feel homely in this class, AT ALL!
I may burst out laughing, laugh like nobody's business.
But I know that deep inside, I am not happy at all.
I won't call that pretending.
It just occur so naturally that I feel happy outside when I am not inside?
It just occured like that.
But I didn't deliberately pretend.
The chinese teacher keep insulting me.
But for some reason,
actually I don't really mind.
Actually, fine.
These things don't matter.
Just get on..
Life ought to be like that.
It won't be smooth-sailing all the time.

2010-04-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

I did something wrong yesterday.
Felt like quitting life saving class but i knew I had to hang on.
I knew I had to think of the big picture.
Somehow or rather why, I don't know.
I am apparently harsh and unintentionally rude.
At Life Saving class yesterday, I wanted to know what to do.
So I called my Swimming coach, "ehhhh....ehhh... what to do uh?"
I think it has sort of become a habit, a bad habit which is hard to rectify but it can be rectified.
Then another coach,which was like his so called assistant, sort of give me that kind of "what's that for?" look. Which means like I am rude luh?
So I say sorry sorry then I called Mr. Patrick.
Then right.
Later the so-called assistant coach ask us do something which Mr.Patrick said don't need to do.
The others tell him but he sort of cannot hear.
So I go tell him.
Then he "diao" me.
I felt so guilty, so embarrassing.
I'm really sorry.
I don't know what to say.
Yes, I am rude.
I'm sorry.

2010-04-25T10:15:00.000-07:00

I am so angry.
My father wore a shirt.
He went out.
And he came home.
He placed on the computer machine.
Bloody shit.
Such a fat ass like him,
sweat so much!
still put on the computer.
no sense of hygiene.
bloody hell.
!

2010-04-25T10:12:00.000-07:00

I'm not returning to blog. Just out of boredom post .. (:
I'm so angry with my father.
Shit him!
I don't know which part of the computer screen he is referring to!
He said the computer screen was orange in colour.
And since I was doing my homework, apparently I was quite irritated but still I was speaking the truth, the fact that my eyes convey the message across, the screen is white!
really white.
And he kept saying is orange.
So he called my sister in,
my sister said it was orange too!
And she claims that I'm stubborn and shit.
Don't want to tell him that the screen is orange.
He says : "Can you like tell the truth? the computer is i buy one. So expensive. If anything, I want to ask people to repair". Bloody shit.
I see is white means white.
Don't impose what you see on me okay!

2010-04-25T10:11:00.000-07:00

Look at the JunXuan I circled! Can't believe this is him!

omg. omg.

So nerdy!

2009-09-06T07:14:00.001-07:00

Pleased to say, I am quitting blog. Unlink me. I will be inactive forever. See you! (: Cheers!

August 31, 2009

2009-08-31T00:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers!
Happy Birthday to Mr Christopher Tan and Umairah.

I and Michelle was talking. I don't know what landed us to the topic about John, perhaps because we are talking about korean dramas. I decided to "confess" to John that I love him in exchange for 3 wishes from Michelle. Ha-ha! Sound like some fable?!? In the end, my speech deserted me when I went to him. But I found out something, his eyes are nice. 1st attempt-> I kept laughing. 2nd attempt-> Sarang Heyo. 3rd attempt-> Swirled his hair and told him he is very handsome. 4th attempt-> I went to John and told him I was saying all these on behalf of Michelle. Michelle was angry and didn't want to talk to me. Later, I told John to forget whatever that I have said. Michelle anger simmed. (:

Lessons ended at 11 p.m. Cool! Lessons are boring.

We went to the HOD Staff Room. I asked Venessa help me pass a present to _____ previously. We were fidgeting as she kept asking me to put it myself on her cubicle which was in front of us. Later, Michelle said : "_____ is over there". _____ came over. Michelle got her revenge indirectly okay. She told _____ that the present is from me.

The ex-students of SSS was really beautiful. I was fascinated by them. Tall, slim, pretty and moisturised. I ranked this 4 categories myself. Beauty->Height->Weight->Moisturised. Beauty is the most important because it is unchangeable thus it is the most important. Height will stop at a certain age while weight can be adjusted anytime you would want to. Moisturising is last because it can be done by applying lotion or seeking the doctor, definitely cheaper than losing weight at the slimming centres and injections to increase the height.

August 27, 2009 ~ August 30, 2009

2009-08-30T07:27:00.002-07:00

August 27, 2009

I have consolidated all my precious study materials in one area.

August 29, 2009

Happy Birthday Ms Tong!
FYI: She's my chinese tuition teacher.

I typed worksheets for Ms Tan in the morning. I went to Hougang Green with Hwee Sian and Hwee Zhen to shop for Teachers' Day gifts. I gave gifts to 16 school teachers and 2 tuition teachers. Obviously not those expensive ones, you don't need an expensive gift to express your sincerity.

I went for English tuition. Oh my god, Rebecca is really skinny and pretty. Her eyes are like crystals and her face is lean. I asked her to send her photos to me for motivation and she really did. Thanks!

Ha-ha! Cockroach at Zowie's sandals, gross enough?
I had a part in it. Laugh!

August 30, 2009

I was using my phone during Chinese tuition but I pretended to be doing my homework. I am such a great pretender but I was also afraid at the same time as the "clicking" sound was quite obvious. I typed Ms Tan's worksheets for the whole day and finally it is completed. *Freelance Cheryl* I am not going to type anymore. What a carefree lifestyle I can devote to my studies!

August 24 2009 ~ August 26 2009

2009-08-26T07:49:00.000-07:00

August 24, 2009
I got a warning from Miss Lim because I acted weird during mother tongue class. During swimming lessons, we did a "somesault" (don't know how to explain) in water. My head was spinning in the air. I have found out that Kimberly and Janice is of aquaintance with Janice Lee.

August 25, 2009

Mother's payday, my payday too!
This term refers to receiving my allowance from her. I got back my Literature paper today. I am pleased. I gave (quality work) to Miss Tan today. I am pleased. I paid attention during Maths today. All the more, I am pleased! I told Teacher Shenny I wanted to take on the practical exam. I don't want my progress to be hindered because I don't own a piano. I must have a piano! I wonder when...

August 26, 2009
Someone's birthday is round the corner?!? End-of-Year Examination is arriving?!? I went to Hougang Mall with Rebekah, Stella and QiXuan. We went to Popular because Stella and I are prepared for the battle ahead in 6 weeks time. A army cannot fight a battle when their morale is down. We need assessments to boost our morale. I bought two assessments, English Summary and Chinese Oral respectively. We went to Mini Toons to buy a gift for _______. Hey, birthday girl. Do you know who are you? I also bought a Piano Wallet. I have spoiled myself. Later, Theron came. I coerced Rebekah to kiss Theron in front of me. But... She actually asked me to search for kissing scenes online instead. I want a "Live" one please! I told her to treat this as an early birthday gift for me. She didn't want. Shucks. Rebekah and Theron went home and we went to the new Kopitiam. I am glad that I was not tempted enough to buy something because I spent a lot today.

August 23, 2009

2009-08-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

Hey! Today is the first day of Virgo! (:
Yesterday, I and Saffanah went to Yi Shun Town Secondary School for a pre camp briefing. Their school is two times of ours and their aggregate to get in is 250, skyhigh awesome results. Although they are only 20 years in age, but sadly, they are wiser than us! There was no tuition yesterday and I slept the whole day. "What a well day spent indeed!" I chatted with Yue Ying over the phone just now. Life is so mundane, nothing special to add. I called McDelivery today! 2 Large Fries, 2 Mcflurry(s) and a packet of Magnolia milk all to myself to cure my hunger pangs. Is it a duo?

August 21, 2009

2009-08-21T08:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday QiXuan!(:

I got back History paper. The one who received the highest merit was merely 26/40. Imagine how low I could go! Friends, please don't tell people my grades, I will be too ashamed to face the world. By the way, I have realised many people using the word "deproved". Actually, there's no such word at all. The actual word to use is "deteriorate". Okay, well, I have deteriorated a lot, seriously. I have started to get use to the rotten results. I don't want to but I am just getting used to it. I don't know why. Perhaps I am on the verge of giving up though I don't want to and won't allow myself to. There is guides after school. I sold 20 tins of cookie and I handed up my form proudly to Mdm Suhana. Thanks to those that has bought cookies from me. It is well appreciated. NYAA Booklet (National Youth Achievement Award) Booklet was finally done and handed up. Two worries striked off the list. I was enthusiatic during guides. We were shouting the timings out loud. (: I headed home with Saffanah. There will be a briefing tomorrow at YiShun Town Secondary School for a camp on the December Holidays. I will have to wake up early. I will envy those who could enjoy their Saturday Princess Sleep.

Aug 19, 2009

2009-08-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

I finally broke free and escaped from the clutches of examinations. No more stress! I feel so good! Home Economics and Art was the last paper. My words were huge and I could only say that it is untidy. After school, Miss Tan came to our class to give us back the Science Examination Paper. Amirul got an A1. Stella, Lee Qi, Terence and Rebekah got an A2. Congratulations! This time, Pei Pei did not score a mediocre grade for science. She got higher than me and I don't know why. I suddenly felt so proud of her. You see? She always thought she could only excel in terms of arts. But actually, there is not a limit of boundaries for her to excel just that she deems it to be so. Pei Pei, remember, next time if you study, you will get satisfaction. I gathered in a group with Felicia, Saffanah and Amirah(s). I told them that I smoked, they believed but I lied! We went to the canteen near the spiral staircase outside the general office to assemble. We made two big hearts with the notes written by students of serangoon secondary school on national day. On our way home, we went to write a number of feedbacks outside the office.

August 18, 2009

2009-08-18T04:47:00.000-07:00

I have deleted all my posts. Let it be a fresh start for me. I was really taken aback when the bus suddenly braked and the screeching sounds could be solely heard. It happened at the moment when I wanted to hold the pole for balance. I lost control and my legs acted as an auto trackmill machine moving at high speed. I plunged from the back door to the front door of the bus and hit the emergency kit I suppose and fell on the entry steps. One of the Uncle helped me up to the seat. The bus stopped. It was said the bus saw a car approaching and braked suddenly that led to my misadventure. My fingers hurt very badly that it was standing exactly straight and numbed, just like a penis errecting. I am just merely using constructive examples, don't get the wrong idea. One of my schoolmate called the ambulance. Thanks. The ambulance arrived and brought me to KK Hospital. The first nurse that assisted to me was a beauty! She had lovely like roses complexion and her figure is superb. 40 kg for an adult, imagine it! Don't misunderstood. I didn't ask. I heard it when she was talking to her colleague. I did a hand X-Ray and there is no fracture. Thank god! This is the first time I entered an ambulance, sat on a stretcher, wheelchair and ward room bed. It feels so embarrassing and esteem-provoking though. The kids there were all younger than me and they are mostly potential babes and hunks in the terms of complexion and figure. I skipped piano lessons today. I hope my fingers will get well soon.

EDITED

The traffic police just called, asking for my statement regarding the accident just now. I actually got confused about a green light and a green man. Hope everything flows!